Blurry

Hello Hatters,

I don’t know about you, but it seems like the Monday after a holiday, should be about putting things in the house back in order. Guest beds sheets need to be washed and beds remade.  Regular laundry needs to be done.  Groceries for the week need to be shopped for and put away.  And since I’m a planner, I couldn’t forget to make my honey-do list for the party that I’m hosting on Friday.  In my case, I’m my own honey.  (That sounds funny, like the silly old song “ I’m My Own Grandpa.”)   Anyway…

Early yesterday, I tried to do my Bible Study,  but I just couldn’t focus on it.  The cares in my heart and the chores in my mind kept me from the pursuing the wisdom that really mattered.  I hurried to and fro and did what was right in front of me.

This morning, I redid yesterday‘s Bible Study assignment, and it was like I read the topic for the first time.  My natural attributes tend to be that of a student or learner, but yesterday I was just “off.”  I didn’t want to lose what was meant for my studious heart, so I did Monday’s reading and assignments on Tuesday.  No problem, but no coincidence either.

Deliberately enough, the lesson was on learning from Jesus.  Wow!  His Grace never ceases to amaze me.  I was unable to settle into my lesson yesterday, but today was different.  The blur was gone and I could focus on the gifts found in the assignment.  Then a song came to mind, and the chorus goes like this:

“Turn your eyes upon Jesus,  Look full in His wonderful face, And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, In the light of His glory and grace.”

I know things have to get done on this earth.  It’s the old Biblical battle of being a Martha or being a Mary.  There’s a time and a place for each role, but my natural inclination is to be a Mary.  I long to go into a deeper trust in God.  It’s where I find the most peace.

I may not understand the whys of this life’s troubles, but as I trust and pray more, it’s also the place where my feelings are safe and heart is not blurry.

MT Penny