Expectations

Hello friends,

I get in trouble every time I expect things to work out in a certain way.  When circumstances turn out differently, and not my way, my emotions run high.  My feelings are on my sleeve.  I even withdraw from conversations.

When I consider the problem, my biggest issue …. I didn’t surrender my expectations to the Lord’s way, ahead of time.  Ugh!

This is not a one time event, y’all.  I should have learned by now that my own expectations can set me up for a messy time.  Unfortunately, these lessons seem to require repeat, repeat, repeat.

It’s a hard life practice to surrender expectations.  The paradox is that I must ask for God’s grace to surrender because I can’t do it alone.  Loneliness sets in if I don’t surrender to God’s way.  It doesn’t mean I am alone.  It just means my heart can get twisted and even shrink back in isolation which is never good.  I know this, so I talk to my Lord again and again. I ask for His guidance, as I should have done in advance.  Well then …

This morning, I went outside to mow my yard.  Then I pulled some weeds.  It felt good to mow down that annoying Dallas grass and pull those pesky weeds.  It didn’t change any of the recent outcomes, yet, somehow I feel better.  The disappointment feels less heavy and my feelings are back in my heart.  I can smile.

Maybe the weeds and tall grass symbolize my own expectations which needed to be tamed!  You think?

I know I’m not the only mess here.  Help a girl out.  Do you get me?

Sweaty hugs from afar,

MT Penny